so. it has been a LONG time since i was here. so many memories. will you remember me? or have you already forgotten? slowly so very slowly. it is all coming back. Thorn...i have him back. god it feels good to be in your arms again. Lirael... it feels so good to talk to yu again... i've missed you both so fucking much... even a tenuous conection with devine is here. i am left shocked and amazed at how kind this cruel cruel world can be. i love you. so much    

Rowan

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NONE OF THIS MAKES SENSE. MY FONT IS CHOSEN WITH PURPOSE, ITS CALLED ADOLESENSE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! gof i just want to scream at people. i want to throw things and yell and tell people exactly what is going on. i want someone to tell me why i want to scream all the time!!! i miss her so much its driving me nuts. i dont know what to do with jen. i want to be there for her so much and i dont know how to do that. i want to be there when she feels like shit and i want to eat pickles and ice cream with her....and god it makes me want to scream!!!!i donjt know anythinbg anymore????? i keep going over old sites. and it hurts to read those things. all the goofy shit we wrote. the poems and the fights. xanga drama. we all lived a lifetime on here. now we come out of habit and to bitch which of course weve always done, but now...its so much worse...xanga isnt a novelty anymore.plenty say they are to good for this anymore. their to grown up or what ever...yeah sure you are...i read convos on aim that i saved in my xangas and i cry because i want the love that wehad back...i want it all...maybe if we beleive deep enough the hard work to build and keep it will be made easier....i love life, now i just need someone to love. i need the posse...we all do wether we want to or not. we all need it in a way...i just dont know if we can find it...i feel so empty and so ...so something. so much is missing!!! i want to find things. i want to walk in the woods and listen to the trees talk with you again rach.i want to play poker with REAL CHIPS, like chip chips. frito chips.lol. i want that. i want to go shopping with jenny and i want to stay up all night at your house and talk and watch movies. i want to grow up together. like we always said we would. get houses next door to each other take our road trip have kids and god childrenand all the cats dogs and birds and reptiles and such as we can handle. i want life again...dont you guys want that too???

Meghan.

wow.

it still exists
i keep expecting to try to sign on and the site being gone...
this makes me happy